So . . . i have this crush.

The thing is . . . i don't think he seems to realize how hard i am falling.

Currently Listening Aerosmith's Greatest Hits By Aerosmith Walk This Way see related

hmm...i guess i'm going to write. Only because i'm bored and i'm at mi casa de padre. Can't you see the excitement on my face? ...wow, neither can i.

i saw lindsey today, so that was a highlight of my spring break. haha

hopefully, on tuesday will be good....and i'll sing good...hopefully superior??? praying. hehe    *Ave Maria      This competetion has taken over my life for the past couple of weeks, it better be good. haha And ensemble should be good, and i dont know about comp choir. I have faith... And if the day goes bad, at least it was a funn day. hehe I'm so excited that Krista is going now, i don't know what i would have done without her.

So hmm...exciting news in my life. I have always wanted to be on the worship team at a church. And New Hanover's worship team is Amazing...and i was asked to join. hehe So thats exciting.

Well...if i dont update here. then go to my myspace www.myspace.com/sandragee i know original.

i have decided i don't want to sing anymore.

yes, i do love it.

yes, i do love the feeling of being on stage. the excitement. the nerves.

yes, i do love the peoples reactions.

yes, i do love how the song touches peoples lives.

yes, i do love it.

but i dont want to go through this on going drama every single time i get a chance to sing. And because of people like you . . . i might not get a chance like that ever again.

yes, because of people like you.

I don't want singing to be a cause of depression for me. Or to start being a hassle. This isn't some sort of phase. i'm being completely honest. All this has brought me, is tears. I'm sooo sick of it. And if i'm going to sing as a group...whats the point of singing at all. i'm not happy anymore.

Not much has happened since i wrote in here.

Friday was the concert . . . Friday i had a total of 3 classes...woohoo! But by 7th period, i had NO voice. And i was flipping. ok...not flipping precisely, but i was about to cry. Went home and took a half hour "nap" with Aimee then we watched Saw and ate supper and then did our hair. hehe Aimee did mine and then we left. Waiting upstairs was soooo boring. I hated it. But it was nice...free food and free water. hehe I felt important. By the beginning of the night, my voice was back and at the end it was gone again by the time i had to sing for Ensemble. haha yeah...messed up in Ensemble...but again i did OK not my best. Which sucks...but all well. What are you going to do...

My solo went good . . . i didn't mess up and i listened to it . . . not too bad...not my best, but it was ok.  hehe Britney did AMAZING!!! hehe After my solo was chorus...chorus is chorus. haha then i think Ensemble (lost my voice) then Comp. Choir. Wasn't that funny..but i'm glad the audience enjoyed it. And had a blessed time.

I love singing up there . . . its like a new experience every time. Every time its New. i love it! Just singing for the Lord, it makes me happy and it puts a smile on the audiences faces.

I got to see Vanessa!!!! woohoo!!! havent seen her in ages...or Katelyn!!! woohoo for real friends! haha love you guys!

Then there was Saturday . . .  Christian Leadership had a little carnival for the kiddies. It was fun actually. That took up over half the day. I went home and rested. ...I dont think i did anything else. OH YEAH! haha I went to Krista's church with Aimee and mi madre y mi hermano. Yeah surprised me too! It was a worship service that Nate, Trevor, Isaac and Dan and some drummer do. Its fun, plus i got to spend some time with Janie.

Sunday, Sunday . . . Today Ensemble had a concert without  our leader Mrs. Sheets! Yikes, a little scary. But we managed, and we were told we did a beautiful job. Anyways, we're there to praise the Lord, right? hehe    Then we were supposed to go out to lunch, but i went to see Narnia (which was awesome, by the way) with my mom and Beth's family except Kira. haha And  after the church service...i got Friggle cookies!!! woohoo!!! AMAZING cookies. hehe

Got my Christmas shopping done!!! Woohoo!!!

Theres a lot of Woohoo's in this entry.

Solo Sandra here.

hmm, no one will get that, so hmm . . .

So today was a great day. Haven't had one of those days in awhile. Besides the fact about Kira, but she's alive!!! and I heart her sooo much!

Today first period, decorated mrs. estes' room and then read shakespeare. woohoo!

we'll just skip 2nd period. snack>>good laugh ... HA HA Britney!!!

Third period was trig . . . test . . . and i don't know, but i guess i was hyper and yeah . . . wow. If i died, mrs. moore would cry for days. ...tear jerker.

Fourth period, i realized Krista, left after basketball practice and Nadia just wasn't there. So . . . there goes my spanish class. I was alone with Senora B...for too long! haha Worked on my "testimony" for like an half hour. More like, wrote a note for 15 mins then did the testimony.

Fifth period was Ensemble and i got out of Physics, which isnt too good, bc i have a test tmw, umm...that might come back to haunt me . . . tomorrow.

Lunch = fork. Chris. nose. Thats all i have to say.

sixth just read . . . good book, good book.

seventh. aww me and Lauren got to go to the front building and speak to the kindiegarteners. (i know...thats not how you spell it) They were soo excited of what we had to talk to them about. haha I was soo happy we didnt get the older kids. Alright, moving a long. haha

Then comes the best part of the day. Hung around the house for awhile and Kira did my hair. I love her! hehe

Then went to Cutillo's couldn't find a place to park. At all. and i went in like through the exit.

Got free pizza. Woohoo! Sung in the basement to "warm-up" cough cough. Then sang. i messed up. no one heard. good thing. Then free icecream at the end. haha Doc Smock treated us. Woohoo! Its good to be in ensemble, let me tell you. haha

Phil, Brandon, Dan are just HALIROUS together...halirious! Me, Nicole and Anna, were just laughing hysterically...they wouldn't stop. haha

anyways. no school tomorrow? Sorry kids...i believe we . . . will . . . be going to school.